tuana i LOVE you if you haven't noticed already. i dont know if it is platonic or romantic because i cant figure out my feelings yes the girl i cant stop thinking about, is you. yes i notice every single detail you mention. yes i bought "Madonna in a fur coat" and the ikea pluche and ordered a yellow lilly bouquet for our painting and picnic and yes i want to post a picture where you pet a cat on my story with a music of julio Iglesias in the background. but i cannot bear this feeling for 2.5 more weeks i noticed. i do it now or never. i wish i could be more romantic by doing it irl but im a hopeless nigga and do it this way. when i first started talking i loved you as a person and who you are. i became attached like ive been doing for the past 11 years but this time the girl (you) actually showed interest in me. this made my uncontrollable feelings go crazy. at exam week, i decided to read white nights (the book you recommended) and it made me realise im just a stupid dreamer and you'll end up like Nastenka leaving me. the book still taught me how amazing it feels to have a person see the world like i do even for one night. countless sleepless nights of crying and unsent messages and poem. but i thank you for giving my lyrics meaning. you made me realise im a valuable person and you taught me the goal is just to be happy. this helped me shape my life vision (something ive been struggling for months). first time in my life im having a meaningful deep connection, and that with an awesome person like you. you also made me redefine what love really is. you also made me feel how it feels to be loved for without any expectations in return. i think you see me as a platonic friend. so just tell me which book to read so i can be sure if i love you platonically or romantically because i really enjoy the company of you and cannot live without it. ne olursa olsun yinede allaha sukur ediyorum ki seni bana yollamis, cunku gercekten hayatima pozitif bir etki ettin. umarim yol arkadasligimiz devam eder ki beraber bu aci ve fani dunyada beraber guclu duralim arkadasligimiza sicmak istemezdim ama kader boyle, ve kaderi sevmek gerekmis :) amor fati!! with love and tears and shaking hands - hasan the dreamer